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August 22, 2005 10:55AM
For the longest time I had forgotten that I was capable of being loved. That I was worthy of being in the arms of someone who truely loved me for me. I spent many days, many months getting over someone who I thought I had loved, but he could not love me. He couldn't love in general. Not even himself.
Just when I had given up my search, was about to pack my bags and move on my way, again to start another long year toiling over school, I awakened the arms of love.
I had no intentions of falling for anyone. I was just out to have a good day with a friend from work, his son (my age) and his son's best friend. I dont' think my co-worker ever expected anything, and was just being completely friendly inviting me to spend the weekend with them. When I met Dustin, his son, I felt all those things that one feels when they know they are about to embark upon a long journey. It didn't take me long to see who was behind those shiny blue eyes, and to know I could give him everything.
It's been over a week now since we've met, and I think I've seen him at least every day. However, this morning was the day we had to say goodbye because I am returning to school, and I cannot stay behind. I know he is there, however, completely supporting me along the way, sending love. And everything is going to be OK. It's weird. An entire sense of calming about me. Not scared he's going to find someone else, not scared it was just a fling. Rather grounded and solid feelings. Is this what it's really like? I wonder.
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June 21, 2005 10:02PM
Breathe in. two three four five Breathe out three for five six seven.
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June 06, 2005 11:19AM
Well, I'm back at it.
Doing what I do when I do it.
Went to a music fair yesterday in the pouring rain. It was great.
I'm on the right path right now. I'm taking courses towards my Masters in Public Health at the University of Minnesota in Minneapolis. I'm thrilled to have finally found the right niche in which I fill. Minneapolis is a great town. Kind of small, but it's quite a fun area. Very globally focused. I love it.
I've learned a lot of life lessons in the past couple weeks here in Minneapolis.
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